_{rufus didn’t doubt it one bit that it was out of spite. he knew all about how some souls ended up in hell and it wasn’t pretty or fair, much like life. he wouldn’t fool himself for one second with believing that he would be above all of that because he knew damn well he would be right in the middle of it. after enduring hell, there was no hope for anyone to come out of it without wanting to unleash their suffering onto others.
❛ all i’m getting at is hunters… the good ones among us at least aren’t only out there to slash down anything that isn’t human. i know that any sort of monster can learn to be good, can want to be. and i don’t blame them if they never get to that point. ❜}

_{❛ we all do things we regret. ❜ rufus was a hell of a lot more apt to judge humans than monsters. he had got out of hunting for a long while, but he had always kept his eye on the newspaper. it had been ingrained in him. still, the wish to go out there and stop monsters from hurting people hadn’t ever overpowered his wish to stay out of it until dean came knocking at his door for a tip on bela talbot.} 

❛ true, but not all monsters start out that way. some….have no choice and have no one to guide them to be any differently. ❜ it was, ironically, a very harsh truth that had taken him years to admit, but all the same, he knew how things were the first several years. once the over-all shock washed away, he could do whatever he wanted, and it turned bad —- quite quickly actually. 

_{though, even then, there were times where he could feel regret, and he hid from everyone. it was a duality that he had built up —- even to the point of not believing he could commit such actions, but all the same, the truth of the matter eventually came out, and he had to chose a side —- he just chose demon’s as he didn’t have to control himself any longer. it was a foolish decision, but one that he wished he could have taken back every day,}

❛ they chose the easier option…. then find themselves at the end of a hunter’s blade.  ❜