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Colleen’s heart sank, the way he said it didn’t sound like a proclamation of love but a lament. She gently reached for his hands and gave them a gentle squeeze. “What do you want to do? You must know how much I care for you, Ky. But I don’t know if you uhm, if you want to act on those feelings? I know we’ve had our rocky moments but I’ll still always care for you of course. Even if that means we can’t be as close.” 

She smiled weakly to him, feeling a bit sad that this moment didn’t feel happier. “Or we can… ignore it all together? Whatever you want I’m more than willing to do.”

_{he wanted to act on them, but it wouldn’t last. it never lasted between him and anyone —- he was always just was torn apart from them. if it wasn’t by his own actions, it was by someone else’s, and even to the point of his family’s own.} 

_{either way, he moved to hold her hand tightly; not letting go until he was personally ready to do so, “it’s better…. if i ignore it,” his words came out pained, but he just had to seal his feelings away. lock them up and forget about them all, “for you.”}