samuraiwilled:

Again, continued from here because @hellfirebound hates me

Colleen didn’t look at him, the bruises still apparent on her throat. She shrugged if he left then at least maybe she’d be safer. But if he left forever…

A sigh escaped her and she shook her head. “It’s just a fact made too apparent for me…I can’t fault you, it’s in your nature. If you can’t overcome it then we really have no business trying to force something.” She tried to sound as passive as possible despite her chest feeling tight and encumbered with emotions that wanted to desperately leave her. “If we can’t even…” Emotion bubbled up and she swallowed them back down quickly. “If my life is in danger because of you then..yeah. You should leave. And never come back.” 

_{if it was up to him, he wouldn’t have to leave, but it was all up to her. he gave her the option for an out. an option for her to forget about him.}

_{he let out a slight chuckle and shook his head as he spoke, “funny.” he said. “i thought it would last longer.” ky thought he was really getting somewhere. thought, that he could actually do some good for once, but he never thought she would take his offer.} 

_{more to the point, glanced up to the roof with a deep sigh, “shouldn’t have come here in the first place. too easy to give in, too easy to stop resisting the ongoing war in my mind.” and it was, ky always gave in due to the fact it was easier. he may not have wanted to, but sometimes the pull was just too strong, and he couldn’t fight it.}

_{“at any-rate,” he finally said, looking back at her. “we weren’t forcing anything. i made a decision.” a pause, “one to be better…. much better. just didn’t turn out the way i expected.”}