_{pulling himself wouldn’t be easy. he knew that to start with and that it wouldn’t easy. more to the point, he knew that it was needed, and that he couldn’t stay this way forever. it wasn’t doing him any good nor was it for anyone else around him.}

          _{‘what if i can’t?’ if he tried, if he really tried, maybe ky could dig himself out of the mood he was in. he just didn’t think it was possible. nor did he truly believe it was worth it. all he had to do was control himself — keep under the radar for a few more days before doing something drastic.}

        _{that would make his mood improve tenfold, but he was trying to be better. trying and ultimately failing. he just needed to keep his head on straight. keep it up for a few more days… that was it.} 

_{// @dusttcdusk  xxx}