_{“not directly, of course. but there’s some sort of fate out there – and it is hard to understand it.” everyone had their time, but she found it hard to look at anyone’s time being so short. jessica’s hit closest to home because she was her daughter, but she had patients die young and kept up with the news. heaven may be a better place, but living out a life surrounded by people you cared about first would always be optimal.}

        _{“find her way? all she had to do was come home – we would be able to help her with whatever – there’s no moving on when you lose a child. not really. you try to, but their loss will always be there.”}

   _{he was about to spit out some half-assed comment about how he didn’t care. more importantly, ky was almost about to go into a lecture about how she didn’t know what she was talking about. it would have been all so easy in his mind, but instead he opted for a much easier response. one, that he knew he’d come to regret in the near future if things didn’t do perfectly.} 

       _{“there’s no moving on when you lose anyone,” he said, sucking in a deep breath, and letting it out slowly. “the best thing you can do is just ignore it.” a pause. “i tried looking into my past – did so for years, but i found nothing. just more questions and no answers.”}