_{she wasn’t trying to seek out her daughter, but a part of her would always be kind of hopeful that she was out there happy. most of her believed that her daughter would be waiting for her in heaven, but despite finding peace knowing that jess would be happy in eternal paradise, she felt she still deserved to live a life. all kids that died so young did.}

       _{“it’s hard to ignore… but i understand.” not to mention the winchesters had supposedly died at least three times but she still had gotten a visit from an fbi agent pretty recently. “i apologize if you have lost someone in the past to understand this a little.”}

      _{“i… got over it.” no, he didn’t. all ky did was  push it to the back of his mind. thinking on the past wouldn’t help anything – all it would do was make things harder. the lives he took, the atrocities he had committed in the name of stating his urges, and even the bloodlust that was always under his skin. It was an itch, something that he couldn’t control, and all the while, he ignored any emotions that could potentially affect his judgement.} 

     _{it was the best thing he could have done  – maybe it was  the worst, but all the same?  he didn’t care  – not really at least. “it  was all i could  do.”}