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“–it’s not a matter of changing who you are, just going deeper within yourself. you won’t find your will if you let others suppress it.” the titan himself had learnt to embrace what he was, even after years of studying ways to C U R E his hideous syndrome, to correct his mutation – to no avail; because he’d been told it was wrong, that it was an anomaly. and, eventually, he made that his S T R E N G T H.

“–find out what is holding you back, and let go of it. if you haven’t found what you sought in hell, perhaps it is time to L E A V E and pursue your own path. have you ever thought of the wider universe?”

_{the UNIVERSE as a whole was vast. greater than most human minds could come to understand. for whatever they were, they LACKED the much larger picture, and the TRUTH that they were NOT the center of the universe. ky’lar found himself falling into old HABITS easily enough; focusing on what he WANTED instead of what he needed.} 

_{all the same, he stayed on EARTH due to the fact it was was what he KNEW. CLINGING to whatever he could to BALANCE him, but in turn all it did was make him MORE uneasy. what was holding him back, truly holding him back was the FEAR of never returning to the only place he knew. SOMETHING he should have gotten over by now and yet it was still LINGERING in the back of his mind.}

_{“at times,” a simple statement that was the ABSOLUTE truth. he had thought about it just NOT much or often.“exploring it all just isn’t possible.” though, that was due his own SINGLE mindedness. there were ways. several ways. all he had to was FIND one, but he still THOUGHT there was something for him either on  earth or in hell. even if that wasn’t exactly he case. “not at the moment.”}

_{his lips then pursed together for several moments. thinking, that was what he was doing as he slid his hands calmly behind his back. “i have no idea what’s HOLDING me back” oh, he knew. he just couldn’t -no he wouldn’t – admit it to himself or anyone else for that matter. he’d figure it out then dance around the subject; what he wanted and reality were two different things entirely  …even he could see that. “if i knew… i’d do SOMETHING about it.” a lie,  he’d just do  what he always did… ignore the pain and drink it away. it was all he could do when he started more or less TEARING himself apart.}