should have is an understatement, and she responds to it with a barking laugh. ❛ don’t tempt me ——the night is still young. ❜ rolling her eyes, buffy relaxes more than she probably should. despite their somewhat friendly relationship, she’s still a slayer, and he’s the kind of thing she usually slays. she already knows what the rest of the gang would say if they knew about these meetings ——accidental or otherwise.
❛ blah blah blah, whatever. i get it, you’re cocky. but tone it down a notch, will ya ? ❜ as he continues, her eyes widen marginally, gaze moving from him to the mess at her feet, and she lets out a frustrated sigh. ❛ this was your handiwork ? ugh. ❜ she’d throw her hands up in the air if the crossbow’s weight wasn’t a factor, but instead she crouches down to get a better look at the body. at first glance, nothing stands out, and she looks back up to ky’lar with a raised brow. ❛ and this helps me, how ?❜
he clapped his hands again; just due to the fact he could. ❛ i could also turn it up a few notches, but i’ll try to refrain from doing anything too fatal. ❜ a lie, if ky had the chance, there was no doubt in his mind he’d make things fatal. in-fact, he was planning on making things that way as soon as he could. that way, he wouldn’t have to deal with explanations later on.
❛ as for them, ❜ he gestured towards the body, ❛ they were getting a little too close for comfort and i took the initiative to dispose of them. ❜ ky shrugged. ❛ i didn’t get fully what they were after, but it’s not a big deal. ❜ well, not really in his mind, but it was – more so since ky knew more than he was letting on. ❛ besides, it’s not the first time i had to… dispose of someone snooping around. ❜
“it is absolutely almost always easier to lie, even for those that do not like to do it too often. It takes real strength to put the truth out on the table.” But Lucifer tended to tell the truth because he was exhausted by the darkness that he had been surrounded by for centuries.
“strength doesn’t last long. you can tell the truth, but a lie is what people usually want – no, expect to hear.” plus it was easier; if he told the truth more often, he’d have been dead a long time a go, or… in a worse position than he currently was in. “as the saying goes? a little lie goes a long… long away.”
what she thinks is that they’re wasting their time. she’s direct: if she wants something, she takes it. flirting is pointless and she’d rather skip the boring parts. if he wanted something other than to be her drinking buddy then he’s really barking up the wrong tree and she’s letting him down easy by keeping it simple. “wow, a pity drink. you really know how to sweep a girl off her feet, don’t you?”
“if i wanted to sweep you off your feet? i’d have made sure to buy you a whole round.” there was a shrug. “if you’d like, i’d make it two two drinks, and more will come as time goes by.” or, rather, if he thought she’d prove amusing. so far? she was just an annoyance.
an eye roll. he hated holidays. hated them enough that he locked himself inside a hotel room to avoid them. actually, he did that often, but that was quite honestly besides the point. “uh-huh,” he said, leaning back in the chair. “just leave me out of it – you know how much i despise holidays.”
“–it’s not a matter of changing who you are, just going deeper within yourself. you won’t find your will if you let others suppress it.” the titan himself had learnt to embrace what he was, even after years of studying ways to C U R E his hideous syndrome, to correct his mutation – to no avail; because he’d been told it was wrong, that it was an anomaly. and, eventually, he made that his S T R E N G T H.
“–find out what is holding you back, and let go of it. if you haven’t found what you sought in hell, perhaps it is time to L E A V E and pursue your own path. have you ever thought of the wider universe?”
the UNIVERSE as a whole was vast. greater than most human minds could come to understand. for whatever they were, they LACKED the much larger picture, and the TRUTH that they were NOT the center of the universe. ky’lar found himself falling into old HABITS easily enough; focusing on what he WANTED instead of what he needed.
all the same, he stayed on EARTH due to the fact it was was what he KNEW. CLINGING to whatever he could to BALANCE him, but in turn all it did was make him MORE uneasy. what was holding him back, truly holding him back was the FEAR of never returning to the only place he knew. SOMETHING he should have gotten over by now and yet it was still LINGERING in the back of his mind.
“at times,” a simple statement that was the ABSOLUTE truth. he had thought about it just NOT much or often.“exploring it all just isn’t possible.” though, that was due his own SINGLE mindedness. there were ways. several ways. all he had to was FIND one, but he still THOUGHT there was something for him either on earth or in hell. even if that wasn’t exactly he case. “not at the moment.”
his lips then pursed together for several moments. thinking, that was what he was doing as he slid his hands calmly behind his back. “i have no idea what’s HOLDING me back” oh, he knew. he just couldn’t -no he wouldn’t – admit it to himself or anyone else for that matter. he’d figure it out then dance around the subject; what he wanted and reality were two different things entirely …even he could see that. “if i knew… i’d do SOMETHING about it.” a lie, he’d just do what he always did… ignore the pain and drink it away. it was all he could do when he started more or less TEARING himself apart.
‘such a puppy… ’ he made sure to quickly add that on after him, a SPARK of amusement in his eyes before he continued, ‘ they start running just because you give them a ‘look’ ? not sure i believe you – gotta see proof, hot shot. ’
‘ don’t ever call be that again! ’ teeth bared with-in moments of the words escaping his lips. ’ i am not a puppy. ’ he’d DEFEND that statement until his dying breath (if he was even allowed to die that is). ‘ nor will i ever be – get that through your thick little head or maybe i’ll just rip it off. ’ not that ky ever would, but there was no harm in threats. not in his mind at least.
he scoffs at that, dismissing the idea rather than waste any time thinking about it. “the only thing you want from me is to be on my knees.” or to be silent but the first happens a lot more often. he wouldn’t mind it as much since he sometimes likes doing it but Ky didn’t really give him much of a choice. it’s either that or chains and hell. “that’s the thing, Ky. you don’t ask. I’m never going to do what you want if you’re ordering me to do it.”
at least caleb was right – that was all that ky really needed out of him. to have someone that could stay on their knees. maybe he should have asked or maybe he shouldn’t have found himself attached to the other. all the same, there was no going back now. not when the damage had already been done. “i don’t need to ask,” a simple statement, but one with power all the same. “you do as you’re told or else.” he was getting tired of these games.
Hellfirebound 