was he referring to himself or Ward? it’s clear that there’s been a misunderstanding on her part but how much was she supposed to tell him to explain it? she knew what the others on the team would say —— they’d all have plenty of words to offer in regards to the former S.H.I.E.L.D. agent turned traitor. so does she on a bad day. she’d been so angry with him for so long but it’s not fair to project that on Ky’lar. he hasn’t done anything wrong. “I don’t know,english wasn’t my favorite subject in school.”
“what do you see when you look at me?” a simple question. one that he knew had to be asked. it might not have been the best way to go about it nor the easiest either, but he had to know. he had to know what she thought of him… at least look-wise. it may have been odd- even to him, but he wanted to know where he stood… even if he didn’t know exactly how to ask it.
“this isn’t what it looks like.” hands stayed at his sides as he walked towards her; bodies all around him. “this… really isn’t.” but it was. it really was… ky had lost control and he killed everyone. just because he lost his temper.
“don’t get me wrong, i do enjoy our time together, but don’t think this is anything more than what it simply is.” more to the point, ky didn’t care about her, and doubted that he actually would anytime soon.
it was for the best after-all. he wasn’t part of shield. nor did he ever wish to be. in-fact, he was on their watch lists due to the fact of what he had done, and would do again, and again. a simple fact that would always get him in trouble, but all the same, he didn’t think it was too important. not when he was trying to be better… at leas that’s what he told himself.
“you sure about that?” rather, he wanted to make sure it was what she really wanted before he did anything, “i could stay.”
why is this so important to him? he’d asked the question not once but twice and he seemed overly curious about her answer. if it was some kind of test then she’d obviously failed since she meant what she said —-
she’s not a murderer. the way he reacts is enough to confirm that he is though which only makes her wonder what he really wanted here. he wouldn’t be talking to her if he didn’t have something to gain but what?“you don’t know that. you don’t know the future and you don’t know me.” this is why she doesn’t handle the interrogations. he doesn’t know what he was talking about so he needs to shut the hell up but she can’t outright say that without stepping on someone’s toes. “not everyone is capable of turning into a cold-blooded killer and even if you were right, it won’t happen.”
“you don’t know humanity like i do.” it was a simple assessment given what he knew about humans in general. they were cruel, filled with anger, and unstable. they killed what they didn’t understand and they locked away anyone who didn’t think as a majority of their species did. there were many things ky could have said about humans in general, but he wasn’t about to go into that. no, not now, but maybe down the line he would. “any moment… of any second… of any day… they can turn. i’ve seen it before and i will see it again.”
when he had agreed to pose as grant ward even ky knew there would be risks. one of them was getting caught and another was actually doing too well of a job. fucking up was one of them as well, but he knew that wouldn’t happen. well, not as long as he kept his head down, and stuck to the plan. that was all he needed to do.
“and yet you could do so much more.” rather, he thought she could do more than simply hide. yes, he understood where she was coming from, but that didn’t mean he had to accept it. “or, you know, i could just blow up a building or… three.”
“you wouldn’t happen to know where i could get,” he leaned back in his seat for a few moments, “someone to erase someone’s entire records, would you?” true, they didn’t know each other that long, but it was a valid question. with her connections… maybe he could get the ball rolling on a clean slate.. at least on paper.
“don’t get your hopes up,” he mused as he leaned back in the chair, “i don’t plan on staying that long. i’ve already been shot twice today and my best outfit has bee ruined due to it.”
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