was he truly that horrible to be around? maybe lucifer was right — no matter how much he cared for someone, he was always difficult to be around, and it was no doubt starting to show more often than not.
ky knew that when it was just the both of them having sex, it was easy to forget about everything —- easy to forget about how different they were, but eventually reality always ended up settling in. when it did, it always pointed back on how ky’lar was, and that he destroyed everything he came in contact with.
❛ do you want me to leave? ❜ it was a simple question, but one that he knew would have consequences beyond that of the moment, but none the less, he wasn’t going to take back his words,
Lucifer knew he hadn’t exactly been a team player in the past – and hadn’t shown Ky he was an equal but that was due to the fact Lucifer saw no one as his equal, he never had and never would. A flaw that was so ingrained in him that it would never end. Maybe it was the reason for all of this but still Lucifer refused to think like that and instead saw it as the demons fault – he had no part in it whatsoever.
Foolish maybe but he didn’t care.
He also knew Kylar liked to TEST his limits, to see how far he could push the archangel and that was enough to grate on his nerves but he allowed it to go on for now. Though his patience for such a thing had severely diminished. Now he was more likely to react badly then to truly pay attention to the others reasoning for doing something.
Humor started to bleed into his face as he sees the reaction to the demons full name, oh now his AMUSEMENT was taking place of his anger as he moves forward. Steps almost dance like as he tiptoes around the other, eyes flickering to the demons clenched hands and back again as he LAUGHS loudly.
❛ D’aw does the baby demon not like is full name. Awh suck it up buttercup.❜ he chimes, his body swaying with the small dance he makes with every single step. He should have stopped before he did something that the other would hate but the devil was having too much fun right now. He had found a new source of amusement and was going to PUSH the limits.
his limits were ALREADY close to the breaking point: he rarely used his FULL name as it BOUND him to what he was and what would ALWAYS be dragged around while he was ALIVE. to know that he would NEVER be considered as fully ANYTHING was enough to make him go INSANE at times and yet…. that was ONE reason he always wanted to END his existence.
ky’lar didn’t BELONG anywhere and was ULTIMATELY a mistake; it had been INGRAINED into his head for as LONG as he could remember, and there was no DOUBT that it would follow him for as long as he lived.
❛ this DEMON doesn’t think ANYONE should use it’s FULL name! ❜
a BOLD statement, even more so than he originally thought as his voice ended up RAZING towards the ARCHANGEL out of ANGER when even ky knew he shouldn’t have done so to begin with, ❛ especially, someone like YOU! ❜
though, instantly after his last words he REGRETTED them: he was angry and hurt —- even though it was more than likely his own FAULT for the situation he found himself in.
MERCY wasn’t generally Lucifer’s forte – no he wasn’t too fond of it in all terms but right now he was slightly willing to offer it. Only to see Ky’lar BEG. That was something he wished he could see, he knew the other didn’t do that and well Lucifer wanted to see if he could push the bar a little.
He enjoyed a POWER PLAY every now and then but the ways in which the other had done it were what pissed him off the most. He generally enjoyed watching them all struggle but not when that power was working to overthrow him. And that was exactly what it had TURNED into. So now he was pissed and would continue to be for a long time. He had already had this throne stolen and wouldn’t see it done again.
❛ Oh, oh we aren’t DONE yet Ky’lar. No we’re playing by my rules now.❜
he should have KNOWN that the stakes would have been RAISED tenfold this time over : the time for GAMES between them were OVER and it caused a slight TWINGE of fear in the back of his mind. there were SEVERAL things that he could DEAL with, torture, being chained up, and even being CONFINED to a cell.
however, he should have KNOWN that the rules would have been CHANGED this time around; what he had done was considered TREASON to many, but the demon didn’t think what he did was ULTIMATELY wrong. it was a way to PROVE what he was capable of and ESTABLISH what was possible WITHOUT being LUCIFER’S demon.
❛ you might not be done, but i AM ❜ the words came out HARSHER than he expected, but all the same, the demon was DONE trying to find a WILL to live, and this just proved it,
no matter what they had been through, the archangel could always catch the demon off guard, and cause him to pause his entire thought process. ky’lar had said several times over that he loved lucifer, had even gone so far to admit that the angel was his will to live at times, but could he truly admit that he loved him?
the power of being the other’s demon was absolute, anyone that knew ky’lar well could see that, but actual love? he didn’t know how to do so properly; it was usually possession to the point where they were his and no one else’s. yet, at the same time, being with lucifer was different, and it was showing to the point that the demon truly cared about someone else —- even if he had made more mistakes than he could count.
❛ ——— more than you know. ❜ he couldn’t simply say yes, it wasn’t that simple, and ky doubted it ever would be. however, he was willing to attempt his best — that much was for certain.
the harsh truth of the matter was that no matter how relaxed ky’lar had became around the archangel, he always ended up having to distance himself when he got too close, and always debated leaving. having some semblance of ‘peace’ or even happiness was foreign to him — even more so these days since he avoided sleeping completely.
while it was true he didn’t need sleep often, it was something that helped him focus, but at the same time, ky’lar didn’t want to deal with the dreams nor the non-stop nightmaresthat plagued him and talking about them was out of the question due to the simple fact it wasn’t worth talking about.
❛ —– i can’t sleep. ❜ it was a full out lie, he could sleep just fine, but he refused to see lucifer murder him over, and over again while he slept. refused to deal with seeing the one person he cared for torturing him only to quit when he woke up and yet he knew he had to say something…. he just couldn’t,
Hellfirebound 