“or, i could just kill them all.” no chance needed on that little bit. change was something he attempted, but it was just so much easier to fall into old habits. more importantly, he felt far more comfortable slipping into bad habits than trying to change them. “either way,” he leaned his head back for a few moments. “It won’t change what they think of me.”
“ and why do i care about the city again?” honestly, ky would have enjoyed watching it burn ( on most days ). hell, he’d have done it himself if he could have gotten away with it, but still… he was trying to be better. even if old habits did die hard. “it’s been through worse an’ i’m quite sure it will still be around… with or with out my help.”
every fiber in his body vessel urged him to keep banging on the door. maybe then he could get his point across better, but the truth was he wasn’t thinking straight. nor did he think that it was needed.
when ky got angry… he lost all control of himself and ultimately turned violent. locking him away was the best answer – even if it was difficult to keep him contained. not to say that ky agreed; maybe one day he would, but for now… all he held was anger for his family.
for how they said they cared, but then did this – they locked him away as if he was to be contained rather than actually spoke with. they wanted him gone and he was just a mistake. the thoughts that were always in his head just got louder and maybe they were all right. maybe he was just a mistake.
still, there was far more than just an anger that that burnt hot; his own rage controlled him in this state and it was why he banged on the door again. he wanted out of such a limited and c o n f i n e d space even though it was the best place for him ( especially then ).
‘ it doesn’t concern you where i go. ‘ not that it mattered anyways. he was in a downward spiral and he just was starting to reach bottom. something he hoped he’d never get to, but here he was – scratching and banging against a door like the c h i l d he was. ‘ just let me outta here! ’
// @dusttcdusk xxx
“to be quite fair? i don’t do well with teams or… anyone really. i work alone for a reason.”
there were several reasons to why john should have been stopping. still, it wasn’t like ky could even voice them all. more importantly, it would have simply fell on deaf ears – a reason to why he decided to keep things to the point. it was the least he could do. “because if you look any further into this… you won’t find anything you’ll like.” should he have admitted it? no, not really, but he didn’t have a choice in the matter. not really.
“i don’t like anyone today and unfortunately… that in includes you.” well, more or less; he was in one of his moods and he didn’t feel like being nice. at all really.
“you should be lucky. i’m not in the mood for killing angels today.” at least until he had a few drinks.
// @rubiesintherough – sidphael
Hellfirebound 