“says the one who slammed me against walls in his raging hissy fits, cared more about a fucking CHAIR than about his girlfriend-at-the-time, and all the other shit you’ve pulled. right. I’M the rude one for flipping you off and not putting up with your shit anymore. sure, ‘cause that makes total sense.”
“ are you done yet? ” it was a simple question as his arms folded calmly across his chest, “ or are you going to go on for another hour about what happened? i mean, i’m sure you have all day, but i don’t.”
“clearly, she’s alive and kicking now.” being so used to his bouts of anger due to being on the near-receiving end of it so many times, it hardly even fazed jan anymore, and barely got a reaction out of her ( mostly that of glancing up for a brief second before looking back down to her lunch ). “but fine, whatever.”
“it’s impossible.” to ky’s current knowledge, even if she was, it wouldn’t matter. looking for her wasn’t on the top of his priority list. “—- even if she is alive, even if what you say is true,” he shook his head for a few moments, “it doesn’t matter.”
“i ain’t NOBODY’S armrest. next person to try gets the death glare of doom.”
“well, you are SHORT enough to be one. so….”
“you mean someone who’s been dead since i was born.” his hands had already started forming into tight fists as he spoke, “— someone who i no longer care about.” it was a lie, he cared, and had wanted to at least know more about her for as long as he could remember. yet, that pride was always there, and he wasn’t about to let his own feelings rule over him ( this time around ), “ —- nor do i want to.”
“pretty sure people won’t take too kindly to it if you try to rip a hole in the fabric of reality just to get him back if that’s what you’re thinking.” she couldn’t be sure if that had been what he’d been thinking, but still. sam and dean were thinking something along the same lines with helping jack with his powers, so who was to say that ky wouldn’t figure out something similar?
“….old times are…passing pretty quickly, y’know.”
she still couldn’t believe it had been almost eight or nine months since everything had gone to hell for the both of them. she couldn’t even say they were together for six months in the first place because it hadn’t been even that long.
“you think i can’t do it or are you worried that i might just succeed?” honestly, if things had been different, he would have been right beside lucifer… wherever he was, but for now, all ky could do was wait, and see what came next.
“look, i get it, i really do, but all i want is to get back to someone i care about. you would do the same… wouldn’t you?” honestly, he didn’t care what her reply was, but for now, he thought he had said enough on the subject ( for now ).
“i stopped wondering after i went figurative soul-searching with abby. but the last i heard, he got his ass dropkicked into another dimension.”
of course, lately, all she’s ever really been was exhausted in her attempts at making herself happy again ( if at all possible ), but he didn’t need to know that, it wasn’t any of his business anymore. she wasn’t even trying to be rude in the beginning, she was just surprised that he was actually stopping by after who even knew how long anymore.
“—-s’not a problem. i just don’t know what we even have to talk about anymore. i don’t deal with the supernatural anymore as it is, so– fire away, i guess.”
“I’ll find a way to get him back.” He wanted to say more on the subject, but he couldn’t. If Ky had a choice, he would have been right in that other dimension with Lucifer, but fate was cruel this time around. He wasn’t able to save the one person he cared about.
Not that it mattered much. Ky knew that eventually…. everything would come to an end. If it wasn’t right then, it would be later on, and there would be no way to stop it. That much he knew.
“You might not be a hunter, but I still…” He was going to say care, but instead, he thought better of himself, “I still thought I should drop by. For old time sake at least.”
“can’t imagine what you’d need to stop by here again for. thought you were being lapdog to satan extraordinaire.” // @hellfirebound
“is that all that you think i do these days, sit around on lucifer’s lap?” well, that was partly the truth, but ky knew that going too far into his situation would just bring out the worst in –the both – of them. “i thought I could drop by and talk. unless, that is a problem?”
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