jody topped off her glass again and then refilled his before letting the bottle linger between the two of them. it would probably be best that she got rid of some of the alcohol aging around the house. not that there was anyone around to steal it. still shouldn’t let stuff get skunked, it deserved to be used for its intended purpose.
part of him wanted to say that he should be stopped; that way, he wouldn’t drink all of the alcohol in the building and maybe keep himself sober. though, at the same time, ky’lar never could stop himself — especially when it came to anything that could make him go numb,
❛ —– you’re gonna regret it soon enough. ❜ and he took another large drink,
❛ everyone always does. ❜
rufus didn’t doubt it one bit that it was out of spite. he knew all about how some souls ended up in hell and it wasn’t pretty or fair, much like life. he wouldn’t fool himself for one second with believing that he would be above all of that because he knew damn well he would be right in the middle of it. after enduring hell, there was no hope for anyone to come out of it without wanting to unleash their suffering onto others. ❛ all i’m getting at is hunters… the good ones among us at least aren’t only out there to slash down anything that isn’t human. i know that any sort of monster can learn to be good, can want to be. and i don’t blame them if they never get to that point. ❜
❛ we all do things we regret. ❜ rufus was a hell of a lot more apt to judge humans than monsters. he had got out of hunting for a long while, but he had always kept his eye on the newspaper. it had been ingrained in him. still, the wish to go out there and stop monsters from hurting people hadn’t ever overpowered his wish to stay out of it until dean came knocking at his door for a tip on bela talbot.
❛ true, but not all monsters start out that way. some….have no choice and have no one to guide them to be any differently. ❜ it was, ironically, a very harsh truth that had taken him years to admit, but all the same, he knew how things were the first several years. once the over-all shock washed away, he could do whatever he wanted, and it turned bad —- quite quickly actually.
though, even then, there were times where he could feel regret, and he hid from everyone. it was a duality that he had built up —- even to the point of not believing he could commit such actions, but all the same, the truth of the matter eventually came out, and he had to chose a side —- he just chose demon’s as he didn’t have to control himself any longer. it was a foolish decision, but one that he wished he could have taken back every day,
❛ they chose the easier option…. then find themselves at the end of a hunter’s blade. ❜
❛ and i’ll be around here somewhere dude. don’t get to leave as much… not that i mind. ❜ jo had started to get into hunting a bit more since the winchesters came around, which caused ellen to hover around her more. but honestly, there wasn’t many places he would rather be than the roadhouse.
❛ i tried being in one place before. didn’t really work out —- too many after me, but truthfully? it would be nice to have a place that was stable. ❜ he had a few, but rarely was he there — mainly it was to hold his belongings,
❛ not… what i have now, last place i stayed at? let’s just say…. too many things snoopin’ around.❜
❝ y’know that’s a pretty bold thing to admit to a hunter, even if he just told you he’s a bit open minded. i’m hoping to keep my head the way it is, though, ‘till i’m a bit too slow on the uptake with a monster. don’t want to become reckless and stupid like most guys that survive this lifestyle too long. ❞
❝ i’ve admitted many things to hunters : even slept with a few of them, but at the end of the day, we can’t change who we are. ❞ not that ky’lar ever wanted to —- he enjoyed what he was… even if half the time he would have given anything to not be a demon, ❝ you, a human hunter, and i…. i wasn’t given a choice. ❞
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